Hey guys long time lurker in this sub but this will be my first post. Long story short, My girlfriend 22F and I 22M have been dating for 2 years. She has Bipolar 1, she is medicated, she is in therapy, and the diagnosis, therapy, and medication all started when we started dating 2 years ago. We met right as she was entering a manic episode which resulted in her needing to be hospitalized. Once she was out of the hospital, she reached out and we reconnected and picked up where we started. Ok now for the story.
She has recently been in a depressive state for quite some time now. She struggles to make strong friendships and has recently been relying on me and my friends for a majority of her social interactions. Making friends has always been one of her biggest insecurities so I would invite her to all of my social gatherings and stuff I did with my friends.
Our relationship has been amazing as far as i could tell, we spend almost all of our time together, we traveled the world together, and we basically just did everything together. We were best friends is what im trying to get at.
Just the other day we went to a party and got really drunk and she had a massive emotional crash after one of my friends basically said that they only hang out with her because she is my girlfriend. She completely cut me off that night when i tried to talk to her about what was going on. The next morning when we met up to talk about what happened she broke up with me which completely blindsided me. It was like I couldnt even recognize her. Just before this were going to the gym together, she was setting up dinner dates with other couples we knew and we were even planning on another international trip. So when she broke it off I was shocked to say the least haha. She said that she has relied on me too much for her emotional support and needed to figure things out on her own.
She did say that she wrestled with the decision the day of and that she didnt know what her life would look like without me in it. She said she was speechless and didnt really have many answers for me in that moment. We do have plans to talk about it eventually but that could be in an hour, a month, or a year from now, I have no idea. It is finals season so maybe that could be a factor too? I really cant make heads or tails of it.
Has anyone had a similar experience with something like this? Could this be the result of a depressive episode or should I just come to terms that im not what she needs anymore?
I know this is decently long, thanks for reading.