How do I stop projecting my body image issues onto others?
Hello, I'm a 21yo woman living with three other women my age. We all get along super well, and I really do love them. I've struggled with body dysmorphia pretty much since I hit puberty. I struggled with it when I was super thin in highschool, and I struggle with it now as a midsized adult.
At a recent doctor's appointment I found out I weigh much more than I thought, actually the heaviest I've ever weighed in my life. And I've been spiraling heavily since.
I was venting to my best friend about this (one of my roommates) and mentioned how much harder it is to like my body when I live with "the skinniest people in the world". An exaggeration of course, but it certainly feels like that when I'm the biggest person in our apartment. My best friend told me today how much that comment hurt her, and that she doesn't want to be the source of my body image issues or the target of my jealousy. And I feel awful, I know it's so unfair to project my issues not just onto her, but the other girls I live with. Especially since I care so much about them. But I don't know what to do, because I am so incredibly envious of them. It makes it so hard to not spiral into my dysmorphia when they're the main three peers I see every single day, and they're so thin and gorgeous, and none of them even work out.
I know this is definitely a sign that it's time to go back to therapy, but until then does anyone have some advice on how to cope with this? I hate it whenever my issues affect others, and the sooner I can overcome this aspect of my body image issues I think the better my healing journey would be overall.