u/Inevitable-Glass-241

I am struggling to find good resources for the kinds of sounds I want to make, think ATLiens & tape b.
I know dubstep has a pretty common layout but it seems like what I am most inspired by is the music that does not follow this. I am ausitic so maybe thats part of my struggle, but I am just not sure where to start. Every project I do feels like I am moving 1 step forward and 2 steps backwards. Do you have any youtuber reccomendations for this kind of sound design and song setup? Or articles I can read, anything youd suggest really. Super begginner havent even finished a drop yet. Any help appreciated!!