Had the final talk with my STBXH letting him know that as much as I want to move forward after his 2nd affair, I cannot forgive and move on this time.
Meeting with a divorce lawyer in the morning.
He’s staying at a hotel.
I’m riddled with anxiety. How do I keep myself preoccupied? To stop thinking about the series of events. To stop reading through his and his AP’s message thread. To stop making myself sick thinking about it.
I have two young children (under 5) so going out isn’t all that feasible right now. I try and read and my mind strays. I have no motivation to pour into any activity.
Someone who’s survived and seen the light, please weigh in. I don’t want to cave in on my decision.
TIA 💗
u/Inevitable-Good1074 — 25 days ago