u/Inevitable-Island548

Hi guys

I'm a 61 backwards years old guy guy, and i started speaking to this girl I always kind of knew and had occasional talks with because of our friend group mixing up, and i dated 2 of her friends (She isnt friends with them anymore).

I started speaking to her around June 2025. It was exam season time and I'd text her asking how the exams were. We would genuinely just talk for hours and it wouldn't even be about exams at some point. From there, we started talking more and more, we clicked hard like proper hard, calling, texting, playing games, but never talking irl lol i was too scared.

But here's the part where it got sticky, I was extremely immature and this was the first girl I actually fell for hard. I had dated other girls in the past but it wasn't like i was checking my phone 24/7 and talking to them everyday for hours. That made me scared even if i didnt realise atm, when she would speak to other guys (most of the time it wasnt anything like i thought it was) I'd stop speaking to her like a bitch, I'd ghost her and act dry. Ofc she would get confused and be like wtf is wrong with this guy. I'm not a manipulative guy and I didnt do that with any girls i dated in the past (atleast ones who didn't deserve it) but it was like my actions contradicted how i felt about her. I was so in love with her bro like you guys dont understand and I'd do those shitty things to her bc i was scared. That made her scared too. She was a very guarded person btw, hadnt dated any guys before, wasn't really 'flirty' with any guys like that. Just overall a good person. She was hella empathetic too, she would always give me chances to explain myself for my actions and never just gave up on me, but her feelings for me did start to fade. I don't blame her for that at all, she had every right and I am happy she did. Even if it did escalate to dating, i'd probably wouldve hurt her because I am an idiot so I am glad we didnt date. She always helped me with my addiction and other stuff. She came to my life at a dark point so maybe thats something to note.

I told her i liked her one day because it was another time when i was ghosting her again and just straight up told her that I like her but I didnt want a relationship, she wasn't shocked i could tell but was also guarded during our conversation. I dont blame for it again it was completely understandable.

We stopped talking much around like december times and then we just drifted from eachother, exams, life and all that bro. But we do have our occassional talks, asking hows life and stuff. I kind of starting speaking to an unhealthy amount of women after her, i wasnt like that before but i really hurt myself by hurting her. Again my fault btw, but none of them ever felt like her, like not even one and it was really surprising and then i searched up the first love theory and i wanna know if its actually true??? Because even now, I don't want a relationship with her right now or anything, shes just occassionally on my mind and i always compare her to other girls. So what does this mean? Will I ever truly get over her? pls lmk

thanks for reading this guys and any advice would be helpful.

Alright, so this is my first Reddit post, but I really just want insight on how sixth form works from people who actually go there, as the people I know in sixth form keep giving me vague answers.

For some context, I'm a year 11 student doing my GCSEs, and my entire Year 11 has been absolutely chaotic. I was separated from mainstream during october and it was so unexpected, so since then, I have been in a separate on-site provision for pupils on the threshold for permanent exclusion. I had been a good kid in Year 10 and improved my behaviour tremendously from Year 9 and was really getting into the habit of revising and being interested in the career I want to pursue. However, this whole alternative provision thing tilted my whole world, I won't say it was entirely the school's fault as they did have basis to open an investigation but getting put in alternative provision for the whole of Year 11 was highly a stretch solely on witness statements. During that, I was just a target for the school, they went as far as sending police to my house because of a 'mix up' in names. No teacher ever apologised to me for that or put me in a meeting, asking about my well-being. I got like 20 more stories like this but lets put all that aside.

I really just wanna leave this shitty school and want a new start in sixth form and have a chance to actually learn in school, not just be in survival mode. I want to maximise my learning and also have fun which I didn't get to have in Year 11. All I want to know is how sixth form operates socially and academically. I would really appreciate any advice as I am sort of desperate to know.

Thanks guys.