Feeling pressured
What’s up everyone. I’ve been doing really well in my recovery, 70 days sober so far. I haven’t been triggered or had cravings or anything crazy.
Anyways I have some mixed experiences with AA. I know some good people there and I have gotten some good info from some meetings here and there. I’m not even entirely opposed to working the steps, I think people in general could probably benefit from it. However I’ve been getting pressured to continue to go to as many meetings as possible and if i say I’m good with just a few a week I’m told it’s not enough and my ways haven’t worked for me in the past etc. I’m told that my sobriety is at risk if I’m not making it a priority; my therapist who’s a great guy and an AA guy, wants me to do 5 or more in person a week and I’m already working a full time job on top of my own business and having two kids.
My recovery in my opinion has been more about my inner healing and inner journey. I’ve strengthened my mind, take on life with a different perspective, detached myself from my old thinking and identity.
I believe recovery is more likely to succeed if you can grow spiritually and mentally and really live life differently than the past. But even when my mind, my actions, who I am, show such a positive change to others, they still think I need so many meetings to be taking my sobriety seriously.
I look at AA/NA as a tool. And I’m open to utilizing any and every tool available but am not quite wanting to 100% commit to just one way. Plus sometimes the social aspects of AA/NA are a bit weird. I just don’t feel like socializing with everyone and don’t want my entirely life and each conversation about recovery ya know.