u/Inevitable_Ant2516

What would you do in my situation? I'm a stay at home mom, have three kids, ages 7 months, 5, and 7. h-EDS, fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue. I gave birth 7 months ago and have been sick with some form of a cold virus every month since then, sometimes back to back. We have also been house shopping and just put in our third offer and if this one passes inspection, we'll be moving in about 6 weeks. On top of that, my daughter wants playdates with 4 different friends very soon, whose parents I haven't met yet. She has 3 different birthday parties she's invited to this summer, and I also have to throw her birthday party in about a month. I'm drowning in chores I can't catch up on, so my house is dirtier than normal which is incredibly overstimulating. The baby is teething and learning to eat solids. The husband works long hours and we've barely had any intimacy lately because I'm falling asleep as soon as the kids are in bed. My period is suddenly super irregular after being regular for years. I'm eating so much junk and feeding my family the same because I barely have any energy to meal plan or cook. I haven't talked to the two friends I have in months because I don't have the bandwidth to socialize. I don't have help from parents because step mom stays busy, dad announced he is retired from everything including caring for children. We recently found coke in my MIL's house while our kids were there, totally accessible to them so now she's not a babysitting option until she's undergone many drug tests. Even then she probably won't be an option for years because I have no trust in her now. I'm also behind on appointments I desperately need, most I'm terrified to go to.

There's so much pressure right now. I'm barely functioning as an adult. I'm falling asleep every moment I get and I feel like I'm going to collapse when I'm not. What am I supposed to do?

I grew up in a fire and brimstone church. Non-UPC pentecostal. Running around and screaming, speaking in tongues, being "filled with the holy ghost", and then passing out on the floor was just part of the routine every service. Those who passed out were covered with a red sheet head to toe like a dead body in the middle of the floor until they were ready to come out of their "trance". Services would last over 3 hours some days because of this mess. I always thought this behavior was wild, even as a young child and thought either everyone was faking it or there was something wrong with me (my mom was not shy of accusing me of being possessed because I couldn't do these things lol). My grandma was never one to do these things though and seemed relatively sane. I never saw her "get filled with the holy ghost" and pass out for many years, until one day it happened when I was a preteen. After that I was very confused. If my sane-ish grandma did it, maybe it is happening and they're not making it up? At my age (31), education, and years away from my family and the church, it's obvious to me something supernatural wasn't actually happening. But what was? Why would dozens of people fake this every week? And then my grandma??

What do you think was happening? The music almost seemed like a form of hypnosis on these people. Could they have ALL been faking it? Why? Psychosis? I would love to hear your opinions. Thank you in advance.

So I find myself often desiring to go into one of those sensory deprivation tanks. Unfortunately it seems like most require you to float in water that goes into your ears. I have never in my life been able to handle the feeling of anything in my ears, especially water. As a result I do not swim under water and have trouble washing my hair. Ear plugs are a no go. What activity do you think would be most similar that doesn't require anything going into your ears? Going deep into the woods has helped a little but I do not feel safe enough to go out and close eyes in the middle of the woods lol