23 Weeks with Mono-Di Twins & sIUGR
I’m writing this because I’m genuinely scared and don’t really know who else to talk to or ask for support from. I’m currently 23 weeks pregnant with mono-di twins complicated by sIUGR Type 3 affecting Baby B. Earlier in the pregnancy, reduction was offered, but I couldn’t go through with it. Right now, fluid levels are okay, and the Dopplers are intermittently absent with very frequent monitoring, but the growth discordance continues to increase. It’s all starting to feel very real. I don’t know whether I should allow myself to celebrate this pregnancy or brace myself for something bad to happen. I haven’t booked a maternity shoot or planned a baby shower. We haven’t even chosen names or started a registry because it feels like we’re constantly waiting for the other shoe to drop. I’m terrified of preterm labor, a long NICU stay, and potential complications for my boys. All I ever wanted was a simple, uncomplicated pregnancy, and instead this has been filled with fear and uncertainty.
I think part of what makes this so hard is feeling emotionally stuck between hope and grief at the same time. If anyone has gone through something similar, I would really appreciate hearing your stories, advice, or even just how you coped mentally through the uncertainty. Right now I just feel scared, overwhelmed, and honestly heartbroken that this journey has been so difficult.