Porn is ruining my life and now its making me question my sexuality.( Please help me)
I first discovered porn when I was 7. I first masturbated at 9 and now 16 and i havent stopped. I keep telling myself that im going to stop but i cant even last 3 days. I try to uninstall apps like instagram, twitter, tiktok and snapchat so that i wont get tempted but it doesnt work. I always end up going to google or safari and watching porn on there. Its gotten so bad to where i need to go to exterme lenghts just to cum. Use my hands, carpet, pillow and even my bed. I dont want to do those things but i just cant stop. I even mastrbated in the waiting room of a doctors office when i was 12. I try so hard to look at woman correctly but i cant. I try to play video games, practice and play outside but once all that ends and im in my bed all alone i open my phone and masturbated. Then about a month ago I saw this video on twitter where this girl was giving some guy head on twitter and she was going crazy and it turned me on so hard i beat my meat to it. I went to find the girl and it was a TRANS!! (No disrespect to trans people) Now every once and a while i find myself going back to those videos becuase they way they were giving head was crazy and I get hard and masturbate but i dont cum. The thought of the person once being a male just stops it. I dont think im gay Im not attracted to guys, dicks or anal. But every day i have thoughts about it and question my self. How crazy is that, i have to deal with a porn addiction and constants thought on wether im gay or not every single second. Im acomplishing all of my goals in life but i cant even be happy becuase of these problems. Eveything i ever wanted in my life is unraveling infront of me but im depessed. I would really appreciate it if you guys could help