u/Inevitable_Put_9542

I’ve done the reflections. I’ve stopped drinking for months after being accused of “not being able to stop”. My father and brother are drinkers, bad. I know what bad looks like and abuse of booze really looks like.

I don’t get black out drunk ever. I don’t party. I don’t drink every night. I usually have one or two drinks, if I drink at all. And yet…

Every time I order a drink he makes a comment.

I am moving out and he commented on the house I picked is “central” and perfect for stumbling home from the bar! To be clear, it’s a burger restaurant.

This divorce is not liberating. My marriage is ending and my time with my child is being cut in half. Im leaving the house lovingly decorated and made a home. I’m having a hard time. The accusations of having a drinking problem are killing me. I can’t grey rock through it.

The comments make me cry and he acts like he has no idea how I could be upset. It’s infuriating.

Anyway, just venting. I’m going to be googling signs of covert alcoholism for the rest of the night now.

So I started researching, taking quizzes, and talking to my therapist about it at length.

I’m starting to think he is one… or maybe just cruel. I still don’t know.

We are currently fighting constantly and on the verge of divorce. Today I told him I was mad at myself for how calm he always is while we talk and how I’m always trying to stay calm but I always end up all worked up, sobbing, and babbling.

“I push you to that state because you are more honest when you are that low. You don’t get to rehearse or plan your words. Just raw truth.”

That’s insane to do to a person right??