Dealing with physical symptoms after interactions
Yesterday I shared some beautiful pictures over text with my Nmom of a walk I took. Pictures of bunnies, sun-lit trees, a blooming field, etc. She managed to turn it into a text storm of warnings (deer and men are dangerous), reproaches and threats, and ended up saying I'm wasting my life and I don't know myself because despite telling her I never go alone (which is true), according to her, yes I do go alone everywhere all the time and to the darkest of places because I am stupid and I don't listen to her.
These kinds of interactions, which I've been trying to reduce as much as amnesia allows me, always leave me paralyzed, frozen and defeated, and like I can barely leave my bed. How do you guys deal with:
a) The amnesia or denial of how bad and volatile your parent actually is. I sometimes forget or want to forget, because I still don't fully believe it with my whole body.
b) The freeze response in ways that feel manageable.
Thank you ❤️