u/Infamous-Half-6781

My partner of 9yrs. I've left him 3 times now. He isn't violent nor verbally abusive but I've finally realised he is narristic and gas lighting me. He constantly brings up me leaving him. I know I'm better off without him but the way he pleads and begs me to take him back. We are currently homeless and between jobs. Every time I've left him I've left without telling him because he wears me down to stay.

And I heartless to do it again to him? I don't love him