u/Infamous-Mongoose309

So found out yesterday that I(25F) and my husband(25M) had a positive test yesterday. I have done nothing but cry the past 48 hours because this was unexpected. He is so pro life he won’t even talk about it as on option for me. We are hundreds of miles from my support system and family. I have no friends and no family where we live. His parents are about two hours away and are also very pro life. They would do anything for us I know it but it’s not the same. I feel like I’m being forced into this. I can’t stop crying. I think I’m around 5 weeks or so. We are not financially prepared to do this right now. He says it’s going to be fine and we will figure it out. We both work in the food service industry with no health benefits at all.
I understand it’s never a perfect time but I don’t want to go through pregnancy alone and I don’t want to be miserable and sad the entire time. I’m afraid my emotions are going to hurt it. I really wanted to be in a stable place before I brought a life into this world. I have never been so sad living away from my friends and family, we’ve been in this state for three years and my mental health is just not great because I hate living here. We have no money so moving to where my support system isn’t really an option and I am hating myself because I don’t want to be pregnant or birth a child in this state. I love him dearly and knew how he felt about being pro life but I really think he’s an idiot for wanting to keep this poor child.
I’m seeing a doctor tomorrow and will probably ask for antidepressants because depression and anxiety are something I struggle with.
We’ve only told my mom and two of our best friends. My mom is so sad that we’re not close to her.
Just looking for some encouragement.
I just feel so stupid for so many reasons. I don’t feel supported at all and I literally just want to rot in bed and never do anything ever again.