u/Infamous-Pattern-360

Asc, I have been dealing with an internal struggle since I was a young muslim girl. I grew up in a strict muslim household, memorized the Quran, pray daily, covered in hijab head to toe since i was 3. I can’t find myself being married or wanting children. I am not really attracted to men and cannot see my future falling in love with someone and starting a whole life with them, the thought makes me sick. I wonder how do other somali girls feel about this? Everyday I see a new engagement, a new wedding, etc. I get approached by good men, 10/10 by the book, and I still don’t want to get married. I feel like there’s more to life than that. Can a sister (married), please provide me more insight for what you feel emotionally in marriage?