Me (21F) and my boyfriend (22M) we both have been together for 2 years now , over this all the time we fight or i make a mistake that makes him angry he makes sure to do the same so i can feel how it feels , supposedly few nights back we were on call and after the whole day and being on call he was watching other things i kept calling he just said hmm , this kinda pissed me off cause the nights the only time we get to talk so i said ok you figure out whatever u are doing and then call me , he got mad because i ended the call on his face , and later he said a lot of mean things to me to show me how it feels , and this is not the first time all the time if i make a mistake he makes sure to do the same to show me how it feels but whenever he does any mistake i do get angry then understand and then i forgive him .
And even after this when i was telling him how his words hurt me he just said you can't say hurt , say u felt bad , because hurt and feeling bad is different, also when he got jealous of a guy he downloaded hinge to make me jealous, i was hurt yet i forgave him , also when he hid the fact that his female best friend who he used to hang out with was his fling , yet i forgave him , but if i make a mistake he makes sure to make me feel bad for every bit of it , and this has been going to 2 years , i had a lot of expectations from this relationship so i couldn't leave him and kept forgiving him and i think that is why he took me granted.
Whenever i pull up the past about how hurt i was he will just say we already ,had this convo or it's in the past why are you pulling it again when in general we never had a proper convo about it .
Also the friend who helped him download hinge to make me jealous i told him to get rid of that friend he just said he can't and later hangs out with him , parties with him , so i left him silently this time no paragraphs nothing ,now he is begging and crying for me to come back, he will change his ways , he will control his anger , i do feel bad deep down , but did i take the right decision