Breakup with boyfriend
My boyfriend of 4 years broke up with me a few days ago, we met when we were 14 and started dating at 15-19. We both were really in love with each other and live really close together in the same neighborhood in seville and had a really special connection, we did everything there is to do together. A few months ago, I noticed him changing and becoming more distant and quiet, and so I mentally started pulling away too and not involving him 100% in my life, but I never thought we would actually break up for good. He ended things with me and said that he feels better off without me and we dont match together right now.
I knew that we had our differences but I feel like I used to exaggerate them to test his love about me.. We still really matched I feel in the way we talked, the things we did together and our same tastes/motivations, the way we grew up, our work , our intimacy, and we go to the same college!!
I grew to love his differences to me but i guess he didnt with me:(
I dont understand how he could just break up with me out of the blue and just get over me so quickly:(
I really want to get back together with him in a few years when we both work on ourselves, but Im worried he will move on and forget about me and love someone else
Should I focus on moving on and forgetting about him and convincing myself that he doesnt care about me? I cant help but keep waiting for him to come back and thinking about us getting back together. I know that he has changed and the sweet boy I fell in love with became so rude and careless to me, but I feel like I just cant accept that its all over and he is a bad person. the thought of him being so sweet with another girl makes me sick
What can I do to get out of this mental torture:( i feel like it consumes my mind all day and I cant think about anything else