(Preface: this is not about suicide, just venting my sadness)
Here I sit on a Sunday night getting plastered drunk missing my ex SO of 9 years listening to music.
"I can't escape this hell that I live in"
It's been a trip ngl.
I've learned much, but have no desire to find out what is next.
Fuck this world!
Fuck 90% of the shitty NCP people.
I was born in the wrong timeline.
I moved to Lexington for work and only have a work life. I've yet to make friends!
I'm considering going to the Burl to have a beer and play some pinball, but damn its hard to do these things alone!
Is this a normal feeling? Do others find it difficult to do social activities by yourself? I haven't been alone in a combined 18 years!
I just need to vent and some feedback.
I'm thoroughly sick of kids half my age thinking they are better than others. In this case my entitled punk ass roommate thinks because he works doubles at a pizza place that he is the shit... Mind you he is 21, on Suboxone and has ZERO life. He works 50-70 hours a week and plays video games the rest of the time. I don't do drugs, I workout, my job is at UPS as a loader for a quarter of the hours, but I know for a fact this kid would get fired in a week if he tried to do what I do. I'm able to pay my bills, be happy and not to mention I'm double his age with a disability! I'm fucking exhausted. I had 3 jobs when I was his age! I've worked some of the most physically demanding trades. (Roofing, masonry, sheet metal, asphalt, foreman apprentice for a multi million dollar company and more)
How do you humble people like this?
I'll take the good and the bad. Lay it on me!