Don’t think I will ever have an orgasm
I have been with fair amount of guys, some I have told them I have never been able to have an orgasm if I see is going anywhere, if not I always end up faking an orgasm, Especially when the excitement fade out, and it just feels like a drag.
Don’t get me wrong, I have had an amazing sex. Especially with my ex, the only reason we broke up was because, he ended up moving out of state, and we both know it wouldn’t work out for us. But god, he was amazing. I may not have been able to orgasm, but that man made me squirt 9 times or more, during a single session. I hade been made to squirt by other guys too, but usually stopped after 2-3 times, never thought I could do it this much lol.
Other than that, I absolutely hate it, when guys go for my nipples, licking, and sucking. 1 I don’t feel anything when they do that, 2 when they start biting it just fucking hurts. But he, I don’t know how he did it, but my nipples and clit were sore and sensitive for days, hell my whole body would be sensitive for days. We had an amazing chemistry. He knew I couldn’t have an orgasm, so he tried his best too, toys, plays, clitoral focus, but nope, if anything too much clit stimulation would just give me a headache, we tried taking breaks and what not too. I just don’t used why. Especially when he says stuff “like look at my baby girl whimpering, how beautiful” that man really knew how to make a mess off me.
But yea, we ended up breaking up, had an amazing break up sex too. After him I didn’t date for a while, ended up adopting a cat, loud, annoying, clingy cat, but I love him no matter how much he makes me question my decision of adopting him. and soon I ended up dating another guy, but he ended up dumping me saying I don’t give him much of a reaction, like fuck you, you gotta make me have a reaction. And then casual flings here and there. Some were exciting, but most of the time I always had to fake it, even if it started off right. Some which did end up long term, dating or not would always end in saying “it’s/you are too much work.”
All in all I am just tired just thinking about sex, it starts off exciting, but ends up disappointing, they always go for the clit, when I just tell them to finger me, have to get them off, when I haven’t been able to, just to make them leave, and the constant headache I get after. Just don’t see the point of having sex. If I can’t even find a good sex, don’t think I will find an orgasm either.
I am just gonna stop being a whore, focus on myself and my cat. If I find a right guy yay, if not I will still have my cat, even tho I did end up kidnapping him from his mom.