u/InformalKitchen9514

This is my downfall really and big trigger. So much so I have to make things fool proof but even then I'm prone to slips.

Take yesterday..... Oh boy.

It all started innocently. I was helping an elderly housebound family member to get rid of ants they had in the house as I was visiting for a few days. I don't drive so had to walk to a local store to get a bait trap for the ants.

I checked they had them in stock before leaving and the plan was to just go there, get the bait trap and a bit of shopping and come back.

I went there.... No stock FFS, the shelf was empty. So by then I decided to head further into town to go to another store to get it.

Honestly, if that planned store had it, i'd have got it and come back but alas.

So I went to that other store and nope, they didn't sell it. So I go deeper into town and finally found somewhere that did. Sorted.

From there I walked back to the family members house. But it was via the route I bumped into a few old mates I'd not seen for years and it didn't take much convincing me to go for a pint.... 10 pints later I'm wobbling back FFS.

It's a total shit show. That's how most of my drinking happens. Then it makes me have to assess and fool proof stuff further for the next time. I accept I have a problem and have to do all the tricks like limiting money on me, avoiding certain places or areas. It still all goes wrong at times though.

What a rollercoaster but it's now time where enough is enough.

I've been living with fatty liver for a few years now after years of drinking. It was mostly something I ignored and I've pretty much just carried on as usual.

Drinking has been my terrible stress reliever as I'm sure it has been for a lot of people here but it always goes the same way, have 1 or 2 and plan to stop but it turns into 10 or more, every single time.

I've just come off a mega bender for days and it's been a huge wake-up call. What's different this time? Why now? It's as I don't want this drinking life anymore.

Recently in addition to the drinking I've been back on the gambling as well. I've done the right thing though and I've faced it, accepted it's dangerous for me and I've self excluded from the bookies. That's a step I've never done before, banning myself from the temptation.

So I guess that's really inspired me to say "look, drink is ruining me too, I can't just have 1 or 2, I've got to do something about that too before it's too late".

It's totally time to wake up and stop damaging my health and my life.

just bin looking 4 today. it's a dapper look and sorted. gloves might b left out but all good yeah?