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tonight I finished nursing my baby and was flirting with him. he grabbed my boob and said after I’m done nursing it feels like holding a corn hole bag. ughhh so deflating. i felt bad and just went inward and closed up. now he’s mad saying I ruined the night cause we’re so fragile now. like yeah, you didn’t view anyyyyy postpartum boobs. it’s just not what gets you off. don’t touch my f-ing body anymore. don’t even look at it. it looks this way because I gave you a child.

if I hold it in I’ll just feel a looming sense of panic for days straight till I finally get it off my chest. and it’s just the same old stuff. why would you betray me? essentially. then I cry and sob and am useless for a day and then the next day I feel someone decent and functioning. why is that? does anyone else have that? you try to cope with it by yourself and just end up prolonging the crash out?