u/Informal_Ad_524

I've watches the whole "mdpo.. 1 2 3" (i will not give the full the name of the thing so no more people will get to know it, who know will know what im talkimg about) and i feel so sick about it i feel like im about to die or something i dont want to do anything it was not like ur regular gore or something. I wanna end myself and these sick people is god even real to let these sick people do that. I cant make myself feel normal again and i dont feel up to it i have already been exposed to porn and sh like ts from when i was 6 so my whole life from very young age i was experiencing shit. I lost the purpose to keep going. lidont know what to do next what do i do next to make it easier. I keep looking up to that sh more and i dont even know why. I dont feel anything emotinal from it other my beliefs and believes getting crushed. Help me