u/Informal_Speed_2812

It’s been like 8 months since my break up and honestly I felt like I had made so much progress but recently, I’ve had to start seeing my ex more (we have the same friends) and it’s been fine like I don’t really feel bad when I see her but the last few days I haven’t been able to stop ruminating and I don’t know how to stop.

I’m having surgery soon (hysterectomy) and my mom is coming with me but I can’t stop picturing how much better it would be if my ex was there. She was always so supportive in things like this.

I can’t stop thinking about what I could’ve done differently to keep her. We dated for a year and it was so incredible - the sex was out of this world, the comparability off the charts but from the get go she said she had not been single in years (recently divorced) and needed to be free. She later on told me that she just couldn’t get to the point of loving me like I loved her. I guess I’m not the most confident person and that was maybe the root of the problem but now I’m gonna have to just watch her move on and be everything to someone that she couldn’t be to me.

How can we go from like not being able to spend 24 hours without talking? Aching to see each other and kiss and cuddle again to this? Small talk at a party? Strangers?

I’m afraid I’ll never feel this way again and that I’m doomed to watch her move on while I’m stuck

Before and after pics, I’m surviving though 😂

I’m two hours out from surgery and super nervous