I've been cutting for almost 7 years now and the only reason I started was because I feel too much, my emotions get out of hand easily. when im angry id shut everyone out and freak out, when im sad it feels like the end of the world and everyone else is irrelevant to me, and same with all the other emotions.
sh basically helps with keeping me numb and im completely dependant on it, I've had a history with going deep and I got a brand new razor right next to me, the only reason im thinking of relapsing is because I got a little irritated and freaked out but im feeling better now. what im trying to ask is how am I supposed to keep my emotions in control without needing to cut? I've tried smoking, vaping, and burning before, none of them worked out and im really trying to keep my 2 month clean streak going
I dont want to be dependant on self harm but I dont want to feel. i understand that I haven't had enough time to process my feelings and cut so I wouldn't have to deal with them but I cant handle feeling everything all at once, its too overwhelming. anyone dealing with something similar or has some advice is free to talk id appreciate it a ton