So I thought opening up to her was a good idea since we are both close but instead she keeps saying or doing too much backhanded things to me. She was always the "naturally" skinny sister with fast metabolism and I was the fat one growing up, but now in our teens she is 37kg while im 38kg.
Sometimes when we go shopping together she would get the largest clothes and say it would fit me to make me feel fatter, while being fully aware im bulimic, mind you have borrowed clothes from her multiple times and even at that day.
Sometimes she would say "Yay you're healthier" when I gain weight, but would be VERY upset if I weigh less than her.
One time she seems happy when my relative bodyshames me for being the fatter one while she gets praised for being barbie slim. (I was underweight this time but I had severe bloated round bulimia face so I would look fatter in contrast to her oval shaped face)
I really thought I could trust her but its like she is purposely making me relapse.
Sorry for shitty grammar