I've made a bad decision
I've made a very bad decision that I have reflected on a lot.
I was in a low cost of living deanery since medical school where I was able to buy a house as an F2 and loved living in for years. I have since gotten into specialty training into a competitive deanery far away thinking that the grass would be greener.
I have since come to regret that decision. I made a number of misjudgments about my living, financial and social circumstances that have meant that my house hasn't sold even at significantly less than what I bought it for years ago, so I have been paying mortgage and rent (I already maxed out on continuing commitment support from the deanery), 2xcouncil tax, bills etc. I need to do a 600 mile round trip just to periodically go to the house for insurance purposes. I can't let out the property there because I bought it with a government scheme that prohibits me from doing so.
My financial situation in one word: fucked. I am having to do lots of locums just to have money to survive.
I am exhausted and I just want to go back - I was much more comfortable and happier there. I applied for IDT and didn't get it - these circumstances are criterion 5. I've tried contacting the TPD at the deanery that I want to go to - no replies. I even reapplied for specialty training hoping to go back but although I did really well last round to be able to have the choice to come to a highly competitive deanery, I failed at the interview and was deemed un-appointable this year.
The stress is getting to me and I can't focus on my training. It's contributed to problems at work.
Other than resigning my post, what are my options?