I got really attached to someone who ended up burning me pretty badly. We parted ways 8 months ago. Then, after almost a year without having someone to talk to regularly, I suddenly have someone to talk to every day. For the most part, it's nice. My loneliness is down to at least 50%, but I cry almost constantly. My chest hurts. I don't think it's them because they are not mean to me.
When the crying started, I didn't know why, but now I think it might be my internal systems recognizing the acknowledgement and even appreciation for my existence, and how quickly it could all go away again.
I know that as long as I treat them well and I don't let the disorder make everything weird, the friendship will probably last. Still, I do not want to go back to nobody responding to me for weeks, and every interaction in between making me feel like I'm a dying family dog getting fed chocolate and McDonald's on the day it gets put down.