Need to get this out my mind
So basically, I think I have feelings for this guy. But honestly, I don’t even know if they’re actually feelings. Maybe it’s attachment, maybe I’m overthinking, I genuinely have no idea.
We’ve known each other since Grade 5 and we’re both 23 now, so yeah, we’ve known each other for a LONG time. I’ve never actually been in a proper relationship, but I’ve had a few situationships, which probably makes this even more confusing.
We’ve been talking pretty much constantly for the past 3–4 years, almost every single day. Mostly just texting, sending random stuff, reels, whatever. We don’t really call each other, it’s basically just texting.
But this is where I’m confused.
Like, he would randomly ask if I’m single or ask me if I would want to be his girlfriend or something along those lines. And flirt sometime or at least he was flirting , half the time he would confuse the hell out of me. Like he would randomly be like ‘’can i ask you something,and id be like yeah? Snd he’d go,nah i was testing you ‘’
the hell out of me Maybe it’s just a joke, but for me those are such weird questions 😭 Like why would you even joke about that with a female friend?? Now I’m wondering if guys actually say stuff like that to their female friends without meaning anything by it.
He’s also told me before that he feels good about himself after talking to me. And sometimes he checks on me if I seem off or asks if everything is okay. But then again, maybe that’s literally just because we’re close friends and he cares about me as a friend. Maybe there’s nothing more to it.
I also remember him saying before that he didn’t want a girlfriend because he wanted to focus on his career. He started his career a little later than other people, so I think he wanted to focus on that instead of getting into a relationship.
And now I don’t know what the hell is wrong with me because I literally cannot get this guy out of my head 💀
I’m not even texting him much now. Actually, I’m barely texting him at all. Because suddenly it feels SO weird. Like how do you casually text someone you’ve been friends with for years when you’ve suddenly started looking at them differently??
It’s so awkward and I feel stupid for even thinking about it this much.
And then I start thinking maybe he doesn’t see me that way at all. Maybe I’m just his friend and all of this is completely normal to him.
Also, he’s had a lot of female friends before, and some of the way he used to act with girls was kinda shitty, not gonna lie. He used to send me that kind of stuff too. But people do change, so I’m not saying he’s necessarily the same person now. I genuinely don’t know if he has changed or not.
I don’t know, bro 😭 I genuinely don’t know what I’m getting myself into.
Like, am I actually catching feelings? Is this just attachment because we’ve been talking for years? Am I overthinking every little thing he’s said? Or is there actually something here?
It’s literally midnight and I’m sitting here thinking about this man instead of sleeping , please tell me what the hell I should do about this