Desenho a 6 anos (quando menor, eu fazia edit de gacha life kkk), mas só comecei a fazer aquarela esse ano, mês antepassado, e cenário e anotomia eu tenho dificuldade, entt queria saber noq melhorar
(Srry 4 anything, english is not my first language)
⚠️TW: SA AND PORN MENTION⚠️
Ik y'all don't know 100% of my life and prob r not psychologists, but i'm just looking 4 other ppls opinion bcs I'm asking myself that lately.
Recently I kinda of realized I prob don't feel attraction to men. I can't think of myself dating a guy only girls or nb, my attraction to the male body is almost none (the dick is interesting, but if could b only it without the rest...). But idk if it says i'm a lesbian bcs I have other things:
When I was a younger (b4 14) I kinda of had some male crushs, but idk if that was true, bcs I couldn't imagine myself dating them, it looked more like an admiration (or maybe gender envy bcs i'm bigender/gender fluid more masc align). Tbh to not say I couldn't imagine I has some imaginations but was more like "wow imagine if I married him, how crazy it would b" or like the idea of a marriage, i'm autistic and had a baby hyperfocus when I was a child, + I was a big shoujo fan. But my idea of it sometimes was kinda funny bcs I wanted to marry, have a child and the daddy would die while I was pregnant. But idk if i'm right, but prob I had some feelings for childhood friend (that was a girl)
Other reason bcs I think that maybe no is bcs I was 🍇 as a child, so idk if i'm just really afraid of men.
Coming back to the present: sometimes I watch porn (i'm trying to fight it, I swear), and like I only feel really horny when it is with a girl. I read some bl comics sometimes but it was almost nule what I feel for it, I feel a little more exited in some acts, but most of them aren't a "men only thing"
Pls tell me ur opinions