I don’t care enough and it’s holding me back
18F, first year in college studying science. I’ll try to keep this short but basically, i have this problem where towards the end of the term/semester i just. Give up. And not in a ‘oh no im not good enough idk how to do any of this!!’ way but rather a i just can’t get myself to care way. For instance, last month I had several assignments piling up that I was capable of getting done if I tried, but I simply did not care and didn’t give anything in. It’s like for the kinda stuff that would send my peers into panic mode asking for extensions and doing all they can to fix it, I just sit back and ‘chill’ as if nothing needs to be done?? Even if im anxious asf inside knowing im just screwing myself over??
This only happens in like the last month of the semester too, I start out motivated and on top of all my work but by the end when all the important exams and assignments are due it always comes down to this. My gpa is suffering because of this and I know it’s a problem that I’ve had for years even in highschool, except there I had teachers to push me. It’s so trivial and idk why im struggling with this so much.
I guess I just wanna see if there’s anyone who has/had this experience and could maybe give me advice because no one else seems to have this issue and I feel so incredibly stupid.