Is this considered parasocial?
I’ve been day dreaming for around ~7 years and watched this content creator for ~6. They were a big part of my childhood/teens and their content absolutely got me through some hard times. The same group of content creators (primarily him + his friends who stream) have been a part of my daydreams everyday for the past 6 years. I’m never the center, or even a character in my daydreams it’s been basically the same two characters just evolving over the years. This content creator/group frequently interacts with my characters, i’d say ~80% involve them. This is everyday for at least an hour, frequently pops up at random times though.
I’m completely aware that I don’t know this creator, only the persona he presents, and that he doesn’t know I exist. While i’d like to meet him (in a go to one of his shows/meet and greet sort of way) I don’t fantasize about becoming his friend or believe it a possibility - more this is a cool person and it’d be cool to meet them because I admire them.
I think the version of them in my daydreams is pretty separate from the version I perceive when I watch their content, almost like an oc…? I do feel really uncomfortable about it though because I know he is a real person and I don’t want to be weird/disrespectful. Would this be considered a parasocial relationship? Is it okay to do?