I’ve been waiting to work on my alliance plot home and as soon as I went to put them down I realized it won’t let me and it says it’s only place able inside now? Is this a new thing? This is super disappointing
So last January I was diagnosed with stage 3 with 70 percent embryonal carcinoma 30 percent seminoma component after finding a lump and finally going to the doctor with extreme back pain. I found out quickly after getting false hope that it hadn’t spread that it had spread like crazy to my lungs and had a few decent sized lymph nodes in my abdomen.
After that I quickly was started on what was supposed to be 3 rounds of BEP turned into 4 due to how high my LDH levels were. Thankfully after these 4 rounds I was told I was NED and I thankfully did not have to receive and RPLND. So tomorrow May12th I will be officially first year after all this and idk how to feel. Don’t get me wrong I’m so happy to be here and am truly proud of myself. I was just told at my scan last month I was safe to take out my port which I’ll be getting out in June here soon.
I just don’t know how to feel and I guess I’m asking for advice if it gets better? I’m constantly in this state of worry and it’s not even just for myself. I’m constantly terrified that my loved ones and all those around me have something wrong with them at the smallest symptoms that it’s become such an issue I feel as if I’m a burden. I’ve also taken a huge step back in life with all this debt added on at an already not great job with not many skills in life. I’m not sure what I’m really asking out of this post other than if others have felt the same way? Or have any advice?