u/InspectorAfraid1016

It’s been many years since my last full blown psychosis. However I’m still on the highest dose of meds. Whenever they try to lower it, a few symptoms come back. However, now (and for a long time since) I haven’t wanted to do much of anything. I’ll shower and take care of my animals, and things I’m asked to do that day (most of the time) but I can’t have fun. Who am I? What are my interests? Why do I always just doom scroll and lay in bed or on the couch. I want to stop my shot. At least I’d be me again. I haven’t felt that in a very long time.

Can anyone relate?

My therapist and my case manager suggested I try to find a new hobby I’d be interested in. As a coping skill and for something to look forward to and be interested in.

However I don’t have interest even in any of my old hobbies anymore. I feel a shell of myself and it’s so hard to do anything. I can’t even think of something that I’d like to try.

I guess I’m looking for more ideas of hobbies to try with this illness. So I guess, that said, what hobbies do you all enjoy?

Does anyone else feel like the people around you are paid actors or private investigators, sent to watch you? I do recently. Like my neighbors are a setup, or the people in the waiting room, or at the store. I worry they use my phone data to know where I’m going and set up operation there. I will report this to my therapist this week, and my NP whenever I see her in June. It’s just a scary feeling.