i genuinely dont have anywhere else to vent so ig im doing it here
ok so idrk if this is allowed here i didnt see anything against it in the rules but yk idk mods feel free to take down (not that mods need my permission to take it down, but yk). but also if i remember ill probably take it down in a day or if i get some good comments just in case the person this is abt is on this sub
i just dont fucking get it man like ok so im friends with this person (both autistic among other things) and eventually i start leaning on them admittedly too hard for support through sh (they had struggled before but are better now and assured/promised me they would tell me if it was becoming too much. which they didnt. instead they distanced themselves and left me on read all the time. leading me to more confusion and hurt and sh). after months of this, i just genuinely couldnt take it anymore and basically said i wouldnt talk to them unless they talked to me and like i wasnt mad and some other bs. and i followed that. and they were friendly! we even hung out after school once! and we also have to talk bc we are colleagues.
now after a cpl months of just struggling and feeling super lonely as my other cpl friends werent rly available at all i just snap and i ask them for some first aid supplies over text. i wasnt specific abt y and didnt ask to talk. i apologized for asking them and a cpl hours later confirmed please dont tell anyone cuz it makes everything worse (but said nicely) (theyd told adults a cpl times before, all those times went terribly for me) but they said like sorry ur going thru this, please dont talk to me abt this, and i already told someone. like i respect that, but like they didnt even answer whether they had the first aid to give me. then i asked them for smth unrelated abt a gift for them and they sent it.
later i was on social media and sent them a short abt smth that js fit them so perfectly. i assumed this was ok bc i had followed them a cpl days ago and they followed back. then they said like no contact is for social media too.
*in hs, they are older*
idk what i want, js does anyone have any advice? please i rly need it