i regret breaking up so bad. dark angels hellblaster
TLDR: healthy breakup on our 2 year anniversary due to us being unhappy, regretting it so bad
yesterday was my (now ex) girlfriend’s (F19) and I’s (M19) 2 year anniversary,, she’s my best friend and we’ve been through so much together, even getting through the first year of college (semi) long distance and now in my second year i decided to transfer over to her school because it’s better for my major!! over the last year, though, we really started to get into some nasty habits, i struggled with jealousy issues a lot and definitely pushed her away, and even when i was eventually able to deal with them we had built so much resentment for eachother that it was so hard to move forward, which in turn, ended up making us super toxic for eachother and making both of us unhappy. fast forward to yesterday, our 2 year anniversary, and we have an argument really early in the morning when getting ready to go out which ends up turning into to us sitting down and just really calmly talking about how unhappy we are and everything under the sun for four hours, we ended up coming to the same conclusion of splitting apart but agreeing to be apart of each others lives eventually in some way**,** such a healthy breakup that literally the last moments of it was us kissing and hugging eachother and saying “i love you” before saying goodbye
i just regret it so bad. even if i Know that we were so unhappy, on top of that even with how cliche it is, i can’t stop thinking about all the good that we’ve had, especially lately. i feel like our conversation yesterday is the most genuine talk we’ve ever had, and i feel like i finally just get what was so wrong that i couldn’t understand before, and now that i Do get it, it’s too late to make it work. we agreed on no contact for right now, but man, all i wanna do is reach out and ask to make it work one more time, i miss her so much already💔
dark angels hellblaster, only have 3 more minis before the DA combat patrol is done!