I had a really rough upbringing with very little love or attention, and lots of abuse. There were lots of times when I had no parent in my life and my grandparents raised me and I was constantly reminded that I was a burden. My mom got sober in my late teens and regained custody of us, but it was too late.
The time where I really needed her is gone. And she’s doing some things right that I would never dream she would ever do but I can’t benefit from it now. I will never get to reverse time and go back to when I needed an adult like her and nobody was there.
I just feel an overwhelming sense of grief because the only childhood I got was filled with fear and shame and pain. I wish I could just rewind time. It just hurts really bad.
u/Intelligent_Swing739 — 25 days ago