u/Inter9160

I was raped years ago, before I had my first boyfriend. What that man did to me was horrible. For years I didn't want to get close to another man. But even when I found people that made me feel safe, I never was able to have sex normally, without having a panic attack. The most I could do was be able to finish, but immediately later I feel terrible.

I already broke up with three people because of this. One of them was wonderful and I still miss him. Most of the time I'm not trying to start a relationship because I know this is going to happen again. I already had therapy, but never solved this.