u/Interesting-Club4595

I currently have a 6 week old and I truly believe it is the hardest thing I’ve ever done. I am so tired and he cries so much. I love him so much but I miss my old life. I’m fat, I don’t exercise. I’m a disgusting human.I feel like it will never get better. I used to be a cigarette smoker and all I want to do is smoke to relieve some of the stress I feel. I feel disgusted at myself for even thinking about it. When does it get easier? I go back to work in August and I’m terrified.