I have had anxiety my whole life, been medicated for over 10 years now.
I'm mostly stable when life is good, but any extra burden floors me.
My dog has recently been diagnosed with a life limiting illness. We dont know how long he has, could be years, could be months. I am struggling to cope.
I cant eat or sleep, I'm having panic attacks multiple times a day and I dont know how to survive this.
I got my dog at the start of my anxiety journey and he has got me out of some really dark horrible places, but he can't help me with this one... because this time I'm anxious about something that will actually happen. It's not a spiral over nothing, it's concrete and it's real and i cant manage it.
Has anyone ever veen through this? It's like I'm mourning him before he's even gone and I feel guilty and horrible. I never would, but i even considered rehoming him so I wouldnt have to watch him decline. I am a horrible person. He needs me and I'm a mess.
Someone please help me, I can't get through the day without crying and panicking since I found out last week.