u/InterestingMeet137

You know I’m competitive, but I don’t see them as competition. I see them as feedback

a measure of how well I play my position.

I’m only in competition with myself. Every play is a chance to get better. You can lose a game and still win the trophy, so to me, that one loss isn’t mentioned at the podium. That’s where champions speak.

Champions don’t become champions without practice, correction, and discipline. They aren’t champions because they threw in the towel when things got tough. They didn’t become champions by luck.

Remember that when you asked for the trade to another team.

Remember, I tried to put in the work for our team and I want to win with you. You didn’t see the reason to work together as a team.

Go over there with the losers, because this ain’t that, and that ain’t me.

Remember, I want you to win with me as a team.

I’m going to win regardless, because winning is a mentality.

Losing is a mindset and there are no giant floats or confetti for that. Just pity parties and complaints to avoid accountability.

How could you ever know what I’m doing if I’m not doing anything with you?

If we haven’t talked?

You could never know, and no one could tell you because I’ve spent most of my time alone.

If anyone says different, it’s a lie, but idc. Let them assume.

Ask yourself: what do they have to gain by saying what they are saying?

My words don’t need external validation.

Believe ’em or you don’t. It doesn’t change facts.

You said you wanted me to let go. Well, I’m letting go now.

I gave you a chance to see the truth and assess the situation.

But there’s a reason why you maintain distance. It’s to have an excuse for your behavior.

To meet those judgments with explanations.

Not me. I march to the beat of my own drum.

If you cared to see, you’d open your eyes and see in real life.

Social media is all smoke and mirrors, but I don’t have to tell you because you know.

I don’t even have social media, and I’m here. Well, I’m here because I was looking for you.

You made it clear I have to stop looking and chasing after you.

So now I replace you with my goals.

Nobody knows where I am or where I’ve been.

I like it that way.

I like that I’ve taken my privacy back.

I’m not worried about women, friendship, or being seen.

Drinking and drugs? Naw, but yeah, I burn copious trees still.

I’m worried about that blueprint we drew and my plan over a party, a buzz, or any sort of recognition.

It was really our plan.

But since you told me to let go and didn’t trust the process, I put your investment in trust, and when I’m gone, you’ll be surprised what finds you.

Don’t worry about me. I’ll be good even when I’m not because that’s just me.

I’m always good because no one is coming to save me, so I make sure I don’t need saving.

It’s just me and this program.

This program got me everything I have, and it’s more than most and not the most I’ll ever have.

But until I have enough to build that house on the acres I have off in the mountains, remember: you told me to let go, and no, I won’t come back here looking.

It’s your turn. You can look for me.

I tried to show you where I was and what I was doing.

You’re the one who said no.

Please let go. I don’t want to be found and didn’t care how far I fell as long as you had you.

I told you I didn’t have a parachute, and once I let go, I land where I land.

I doubt you’ll ever find me because my life will be in a new territory.

You don’t care where I went as long as I left.

That was your choice. You chose yourself, not me, when it was never one or the other.

I never chose myself.

I never had a backup plan or safety net.

I think having a plan B is planning to fail.

You can’t fail when you have no choice to fail.

I never needed a parachute anyways. It’s dead weight, and how could I ever trust it would even open?

I never had a choice. Life chose for me.

Life chose you for me, but that’s not to say I didn’t choose you.

It’s me saying this was aligned.

The universe knows no wrongs, and it knows no wrong time.

So if I don’t make it out alive, like any other time I risked it all, just know:

It was supposed to happen.

Just like we were supposed to meet.

And I love you, so I am letting go. And if you find me, well, the universe planned for that to happen.

Find me, you know how to reach me and exactly where I am at.