u/Interesting_Air_1835

a few weeks ago, i was put on medication for something else (not related to psychiatric medications) and my mind became.. quiet? like i could focus for the first time and i never even realized i had issues with my focus. for reference i am a hundred percent sure i have ocd and it has tormented me greatly for the most of my life but i cannot get a diagnosis due to personal and family reasons (and my country doesnt have experienced psychiatrists) so i was initially already familiar with neurodivergent concepts. i just looked into adhd and kept some symptoms in the back of my mind just for future reference, and thats when i started realizing a lot of my attitudes, behaviors, and inattention might be tied to adhd.

i adjusted my routines and all to something that suits an adhd mind and it has greatly helped me a lot. but there is a slight issue i am still facing, which is mainly about school. whenever i go to school nothing goes into my brain and i am just absolutely exhausted afterwards like my brain just stops functioning. so i dont really have focus in school or out of school BUT i did try to have a lot of caffeine to sort this out and it does help a bit but when you’re sensitive to caffeine thats probably not the best thing you should do. Anyways my problem is i cannot focus on my studies, particularly subjects i find challenging, like maths or physics and i have tried so hard to self study with all necessary accommodations and sort this out but it just doesnt work.

Most of the time i feel like a failure because i literally cannot sit down and study and if i do it takes 4 hours for small pieces of information to get into my mind. To fully master everything id need to probably sit down with everything for about 12 hours and finish it, but i dont think average students such as me would like to be THAT dedicated, i just want to do good but i dont think i have to do the absolute best. Im not sure what i can do but any sort of advice will greatly be appreciated.

Theyre different curriculums, quite similar, but o levels still have more content and different mark schemes. even in my school teachers mix them up, and i feel like it makes studying or doing classwork a bit inefficient when we are literally mixing two curriculums up

Some of my o levels are going to take place next year, but i want to be prepared before that since i’ll be self-studying. my main issue is with finding the past papers, so please recommend some websites that have an organized collection of past papers and mark schemes, since most of the sites i have found are disorganized. also if anyone can, please recommend some youtube channels for maths, physics, chemistry, bio, and computer science

i find these subjects to be quite interesting but i struggle with being consistent for these. lets say i miss one day of maths practice like my entire foundation is basically lost and i get really confused, and thats where the issue arises for maths, i dont know how to be consistent and i also dont know how to do the math problems. for physics its another case. i enjoy learning about physics but unless i learn everything going on in something like whats happening in the atoms, why it happens, basically small details which just support the physics topic i once again get confused in studying physics. in school mostly surface level things like definitions and some other stuff are taught so im just lost. sometimes this even happens in math i need to know every little rule. what do i do