3 weeks clean from md today
Ive struggled so much to quit for even a day before, idk why but it feels like something in my brain just switched off because ive had no urges to md anymore as soon as i decided to get clean this time around. maybe its because i have exams that ive been revising really hard for and that kept my brain occupied, but even in my spare time im barely having urges (and if i do there just minor ones that go away within 2 minutes). im just scared that itll switch straight back on after exams, my last exam is tomorrow and i have a whole gap year of free time other than a job i only work at the weekends and a work placement thats once a week, i dont wanna waste it or be a bum in my room mding for a year. but like i said, even in my free time i barely think about it anymore which is insane, im not religious but i think god knew i needed this for my exams. hopefully i can keep it up!