I (M20) cant get over my GFs past (F20)
Me M20 and my gf 20f have been dating for 6 months and I cant get over my gfs past.
I have been with my girlfriend for 6 months now and in the first few months she was honest about her past. She said had a fwb for a year on and off and that the last time she saw him was about a month before we started talking, I was fine with it at first and we started having sex where she made me wear a condom (which is fine), Until we had a scare about an std because she didnt let me know she let him not use protection. After this i was mad because i was worried he gave her an std and she unknowingly spread it to me. Turns out she didnt but it made me think about the situation a lot more. I feel like I am growing still increasingly more frustrated with the situation which is weird because at first I didnt care at all. I feel stupid because he never had to put in any effort, and still got to have sex with her unprotected whenever he wanted. I also feel like my feelings are being amplified because I dont feel like me and her are fully sexually compatible. She treats me very well and we call and talk every night (we are medium distance), but during sex i dont feel like we are on the same level. I often at first had to fake a lot of orgasms because she hates blowjobs and doesnt really do anything. She has told me I am the first guy to make her orgasm and I love to please her but i dont feel like she makes the same effort and likes sex as much as i do.
I realize all of this but i dont exactly know where to go from here because she is very kind, sweet, and I love talking to her.
Am I being weird? I have pretty much no one to talk to about this