Is it even worth it?
(Rant) I'm so frustrated. I'm graduating from my 4 year B.Sc honors clinical psychology degree this year and have spent last 5-6 months just figuring out what to do next and applying and preparing for all these entrances. But every single day things just become more and more unclear and I'm just losing track of everything to the point that I'm left wondering if it's even worth it.
I have interned in the clinical field and ever since i've been really interested in it and wanted to pursue it only but becoming a clinical psychologist seems so tough. Idk if im the coward for feeling this way. I have my nimhans exam in a few days and that single exam is costing me around 30k, and its for 10 seats. There's no guarantee and it doesnt stop there. Each college's application form is atleast 1k+ every different amity different form. I come from a middle class family and seeing all these costs (plus the travel, effort, time, confusion) and then seeing the job market, i cant help but wonder if there's any roi that makes this struggle worth it or is it just ki everyone is doing it so u have to.
I was talking to one of my friends about the same and she just said that there's no other way and sb krte h toh krna he pdega. I mean it doesnt quite sit right with me.
I keep feeling that this field is for the priviledged but noone around me agrees with it and say things like bohot scope hai, its a growing field, har field me karna padta h struggle and likes of it. Am i being too negative? Im unable to understand if my perception of things is wrong here.
Dont get me wrong i love this profession and consider it a nobel profession but at the end of the day i am my family's hope for a bright future, and none of that will be possible if im unable to earn.
The system is so fudged up.
With each form i fill, my will to pursue clinical psychology is fading. Does that make me a quitter? Idk what to do from here. Any advice would be appreciated.