u/InternEast

Attended two rounds of interviews, and the vibes were great. Honestly thought there was a good chance I would land the role because I think I gave pretty good answers to all the technical questions they asked (I’m in the tech sector).

Thennn came the rejection after 2 weeks. I was devastated and I actually cried because I really wanted this role. (I’m ridiculous I know) Here is where it gets crazy - the HR calls me 2 weeks after the rejection and told me the hiring manager wants to offer me the role. We discussed salary expectations and he said I was asking for too much but that he would discuss with the hiring manager anyway. They eventually offered me even more than what I wanted (crazy right?!?!) and I was soooo happy but at the same time, I clearly know I was a backup candidate and something probably went wrong with their first choice.

Starting work soon and I’m so excited but being a backup is truly a little sad ain’t it.

My mom has been on antidepressants for around 15 years and it doesn’t look like she can ever get off them. The depression part seems to be suppressed but I can’t help feeling like she just isn’t who she used to be. It could be the antidepressants or it could be the age, I don’t know for sure. She used to be elegant and graceful, and was really patient with us as kids but is starting to not bother with etiquette these days and it’s almost like she’s a changed person (think a soft spoken woman to someone who screams when she wants something). She also kept the house really clean and tidy pre-depression because she liked it that way and I wouldn’t say the house is a mess these days but it’s a far cry from what it used to be.

Aside from that, she is also far less alert. She can take a while to process things when we are talking to her, can’t really understand complex jokes anymore, and her memory is definitely quite bad.

Really really hoping for someone to shed light on whether this is due to her medication because I simply can’t think of anything else. I could be wrong but she seems to change more over the years. Of course, it could also be the trauma that caused the depression in the first place - the death of her mom and a bad divorce with my dad.

Thank you! Any insight will be great.