Will this affect my mental health?
Hi everyone, I'm 20M and I have a question. I've had a pretty heavy childhood and I still have some issues about that today but I made great progress, I think.
I've always been single, I never even had a situationship or something, not a kiss, nothing. I've always wanted a deep, profound relationship with a girl and to build something serious with her. Love her, cherish her. But I've been lonely and touch starved for a long time and as time goes on this affects me more and more.
I know damn well that there are other people who are in a way worse situation, but I feel so lonely sometimes. Even just a tight hug would make me feel like the happiest person alive. I'm scared that this will make my mental health worse, and it's not that great already even though as I said I made some progress.
The worse thing is that if I were to be in a relationship right now, I would be worried and terrified. I'm scared that my scars, my insecurities, my way of expressing affection and love might be too much. I'm afraid that I might scare away a partner with my baggage and I would hate that.
So, what do you think? Will this take a toll on my mental health? What's your advice? I will appreciate and ready every thought you have.