Permashifting to a reality where my SP is still alive
Hi, I'm looking for help.
2 years ago my SP with whom I've been for years left our world suddenly.
Since then I'm doing everything I can to use law of assumption and shifting to have him back. I've read success stories of people who claim they successfully manifested/ shifted to a reality where their close one's are alive, people who manifested waking up healthy and happy, even when they where almost completely broken. And they gave me hope that it's possible.
But at the same time big part of me feels and yells that it's trying to do something against the laws of existence. I'm repeating to myself that I have it, but it comes back.
I'm practically bedridden now. So when I hear people saying things like 'Just act like you have it' or 'Decide and go live your life' the feeling of being doomed rise up. Like I'm to f'd up to be able to shift to a reality where he is alive and well.
Please, tell me I'm not completely delusional.
Do you have any advice on what to do in a situation like this?
I just want to wake up in warm arms of my beloved, feeling his scent, hearing his voice, cherishing each other. I want to wake up as healthy, happy, independent woman that I used to be.
Any help would be much appreciated.
I hope you are all well.
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