u/Invy777

I just finished the show, and I genuinely don't even know how to rate it because I was SO irritated watching it 😭 like I loved the ending i actually loved that Sybylla didn't choose Harry, didn't choose Frank, didn't choose anyone. That felt so right for her. She chose herself, her writing, her freedom, and honestly THAT is the ending I wanted for her.

But getting there??? Oh my god!!!!!.

I think what irritated me the most was Harry. I kept waiting for him to become this complex, interesting character that the show clearly wanted me to see, but I just... didn't. I genuinely don't understand what Syb saw in him for so long. This man literally LEFT HER. Point blank. And then she spends so much time waiting for him, writing for him, thinking about him from the beginning, she's constantly talking about how she doesn't believe in love and then when it comes to Harry, suddenly she's like "I'll wait for him." SORRY WHAT? 😭in my head Syb wouldn't do that I don't even care what his reason was for leaving at that point, he left and I just couldn't understand why the story wanted me to be so invested in whether he would come back there was this part where her mom said love means sacrificing everything for him and i was like wdym loser it made me think for a minute like syb would do it too for fkn Harry !

The Harry storyline was just WEIRD to me. I think I was expecting something more Little Women-ish something where i could actually understand why these two people were drawn to each other and feel invested in the romance instead so much of their relationship just made me frustrated.

And honestly, I liked Frank way more than I expected to. 😭 Their relationship actually made more sense to me. I liked the whole enemies to friends to lovers development between them. I could actually see how they got there, and I liked watching their relationship change but at the same time, I completely understand why she didn't choose him

Anw i loved the ending so much. She didn't choose Harry. She didn't choose Frank. She didn't suddenly decide that her life needed to revolve around a man. She chose herself and her writing i just wish I had enjoyed the journey to that conclusion more last ep was odd to me but ig it was part of her journey and how she came to understand why we should drop harry

Anyway i needed to get this out

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Lately i've been thinking a lot about the possibility that i might never find love, not because i don't want it, but because of the path i'm choosing.

I know i'm not for everyone, and i'm okay with that. but sometimes i feel like my career choice will make my dating pool even smaller, especially in algeria where men already have certain norms about the woman they wanna marry and what's expected from her.

The thing is, i don't just want a relationship. i crave having a person. someone to come home to after a long day. someone who knows me completely, accepts me for who i am, and is just... there. i keep wondering if that's the one thing i'll have to sacrifice to build the life i want.

Do u ever just accept that maybe love isn't part of ur story? or do u keep hoping, even if the chances feel small? i don't wanna spend years waiting for someone who might never come, but i also don't know how to let go of that hope.

The thing is, i've never wanted an ordinary life, and i've never wanted an ordinary love either. the kind of love i want is probably unrealistic. i want something intense, something that feels almost dreamlike. i don't think i'd ever be happy settling, not in the life i build and not in the person i spend it with..... i want it all.