i can’t wait to get out of here
i’m in my 20s and still currently living with my abusive and alcoholic adoptive father who’s in his 60s. for a while now he has been on the decline with no intention of reaching out or receiving help despite complaining about all the consequences of his alcoholism all the time. i used to feel bad that he would go to work and act functional to everyone around him then return home with drinks every single time but over time i have just stopped caring… especially given the way he treats me and the fact he refuses to do anything about it. i can’t bring up or question the amount he drinks without being yelled at for it, especially with all the free alcohol he gets from his friend on his days off. i’m aware you can’t really do much when they refuse to admit they have a problem and i’ve become pretty apathetic to the situation, however i do find it somewhat hard to watch when he is encouraging my younger (16) sibling to do the same and seeing them both get issues as a result. whenever she visits us he buys her all the alcohol she wants and i can never walk into a room and see them not drinking together, they essentially drink together until they pass out
i feel i’ve learnt to cope with all that goes on pretty well by avoiding interaction with both of them all together but today it kind of struck me how much the abuse and being adopted into this sort of family has internally affected my life and i truly cannot wait to leave this hell for university next year to be freed from all of this