LOOKING FOR UNFILTERED FEEDBACK! Pierrot Demo by Ishnider, prod. JLY
Please be brutally honest, this is a song I finished a while back but I've reworked it extensively, do not hold back on the criticism pls
Lyrics:
[Verse 1]
Feel like, the main attraction at a circus
Dancing in the dark, my act still ain't close its curtains
Startin' to think, love is only cat & mouse
Wastin my time, searchin around for the right person
Motivation lost its flame
Skin welded to my couch
Haven't seen the sun in days
But I’m already burnt out
Tryna rekindle sparks of faith
Strike at hot iron
But action in the heat of the moment
Is playing with fire
[Chorus] 2x
Lost in between
Apathy and yearning
Pop a pill to sleep
I can’t seem to catch lightning
[Verse 2]
Fake confidence
Self-esteem playing pretend
Caffiene on three hour sleep
Double withdrawal is imminent
Cause ghost after ghost
Spirit fades like appartitions
Hope it’s not bad luck
Always been one for superstition
Plays could be flawless
But the game's result is
Independent of influence
Wether passion or wallets
Was mad enough to start shoutin’
But I didn’t let it show
Got to the top of the mountain
Just to find it’s a plateau
Even when close to victory
Life had to misdirect me
Just by the hair of my teeth
A piece of gold on a string
Honestly in disbelief
By what I failed to achieve
Whatever though
Life has its jokes but I’ll never stop fighting
Rationale constantly changing
Finding new ways to cope
Nothing else worth blaming
When I’ve hit my lowest low
Can't brush off dark thoughts
Stuck in a cynical twister
Don't judge me cause what you know
only paints half of the picture
[Chorus] 2x
Lost in between
Apathy and yearning
I just wanna be free
From this endless dream
Lost in between
[Verse 3]
Look within for direction,
I see a reflection of an eccentric kid
stuck in an egocentric perspective
Overly introspective, mental scars
hurt worse than infection
Won't drop the defenses,
yet still longs for connection
Zoom out the scope
Reexamine my anecdote
No tree sprouts dead branches
Thorns take time to grow
Lemme stop beating round the bush
Ain't no use in being vague
Let's go down the list that made me who I am today
With naivety, fell victim to betrayal and exploitation
Trust issues incarcerated me into a jail of isolation
Loneliness made me bitter, failed to forget humiliation
Now frustration keeps derailing excitement into impatience
Smile on my face to hide true emotion
Without it, who’s to say they’d even notice
Cause when wore my heart on my sleeve,
I was still seen as a crook
I now understand that I'll never be understood
[Outro] 2x
Keep on walking
This lonely journey
Can someone intervene
And wake me from my sleep