He doesn’t know.
Hiiii everyone. This is kinda hard for me to say even anonymously but I kinda need some advice. So, I found out I was pregnant two weeks ago making me about 7 weeks today. The father n I are not together and never have been. We just sometimes go out of town together for work as we are both business people. (We don’t work for a company just independent). When we are in our hometown we usually aren’t together a lot. I know he’s probably with other women and in the past I have been with other men. But not really, as I do enjoy my celibacy breaks. Anyways. I see his reposts on social media a few of them saying things along the lines of “ women trying to trap men with babies. He doesn’t want babies. And just things of that’s nature “ I don’t necessarily want children either but I had a few abortions in my early adulthood/end of my teenage. And I always felt like i couldn’t get pregnant after. (Multiple miscarriages in previous relationships, trying never working with my ex). I do feel like I want to have this baby I just am so emotional thinking of ruining someone else’s life because I want something they don’t. Or hurting the person inside of me by being born to someone who didn’t want them. I’m extremely conflicted on whether I should tell him or just keep it to myself and do it all on my own. I don’t want money or him or to tie anyone down bc “baby trapping them”. I recently was having a hard time with my depression and falling into substance abuse and the baby has given me a light, and a new ambition to do better for them and myself. I’m really scared. I’m really sad that it’s not how I imagined. I thought I would at least have a baby with someone who loved me. But maybe god has other plans ? I can’t bear the thought of getting rid of the baby and I’m very nervous.
TLDR; do I keep this to myself ?